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There once was a girl who hated the world because of the pain within.  On the outside she appeared just fine.  But her sanity was wearing thin.  Pain and hate and guilt were hidden deep inside her mind.  But it grew and increasingly she broke down from time to time.  No one knew of her burdens since she hid them very well.  No one would've ever guessed that soon she'd say her last farewell.  Her family expected too much from her and spoke in an indifferent and hypocritical way.  She felt worthless and useless and stupid and ashamed.  It was the same cycle every day.  Her friends provided little comfort for they were all rather opinionated.  Their disregard to her when she tried to speak out left her lonely and suffocated.  The only person that she believed she loved was manipulative and played games with her head.  His unpredictable schizophrenic nature often left her hanging by a thread.  It's ironic that she was forced to comfort him for the idea of her leaving him filled him with dread.  If he knew the impact of his later betrayal, he might not have been misled.  She was breaking apart and falling down.  From her heart the darkness spread.  Bitterness clouded her judgment.  Mentally she had already excessively bled.  In the end, she snapped.  As for the rest, I can't say.  That day it was raining, cold, and gray.  Her parents wept; her friends, they cried.  Her younger sister kept asking, "Why did she die?"  They didn't answer, couldn't reply.  They didn't know the truth and couldn't bear to lie.  They went on a search, a bit of a quest.  And what they found shocked even those who knew her best.  Now that she's gone, it was clear she was depressed.  Truth be told, she was simply upset.  But her pain ran much deeper than they ever believed.  A soul as fragile as an autumn leaf.  Ignorantly pretending that nothing was wrong, thinking she was only going through a phase.  Unaware that behind the mask she put on, she was trapped in a crowded never-ending maze.  This is the story of a selfish girl who shall remain unnamed.  There is no winner of this story.  Both sides are ultimately to blame.  The next time you're dealing with others, think before you act or speak.  You never know if the next person you accidently treat like crap will be driven over the edge.  A delicate imbalance.  Someone like me.
EDIT:: 9/10/2012
If you're having problems and thinking about suicide and have no one to talk to, try calling one of these numbers.

Us: 1-800-273-8255

Uk and Ireland: +44 (0) 8457 90 90 90

Australia: 13 11 14

France: 01 45 39 40 00

Italy: 800 86 00 22

Germany: 0800 181 0771

Russia: 007 (8202) 577-577

Portugal: (+351) 225 50 60 70

seriously, talk to someone. All you need is someone who'll truly listen to you without judging.

I haven't been on dA at all in the past few months because of my issues in life, so I may not get to any of the comments here anytime soon, so please try talking to someone, anyone.

EDIT:: May 3, 2012
if anyone makes it to these comments, if you need anyone to talk to, message me. I may not give the best advice, but I will listen. I'm not perfect, but I try not to judge.

EDIT:: 11/15/2011

How does this poem get around, seriously? You would think that it would be buried under the many other suicide related deviations out there.

I have a folder here that has a bunch of other poems kinda like this one. ...If you're interested. If reading poetry that you can relate to makes you feel a little better. It's all old, but this poem is also really old, so... yeah.

EDIT 1/25/2010: :poke:
wait, it's been 4 years since I posted this?! I FEEL OLD |: Anyway, this is my most popular deviation apparently, so I wanted to say something. lol does anyone ever read these comments anyway?

Like this poem? Can you relate? I want to hear about what you think. I'm no therapist, I'm an incredibly shy person, but I like to hear about people's experiences. I want to know what you've gone through. Those things in the above poem? Obviously, crap I've gone through. It isn't anything spectacular, maybe not even that bad compared to things some of you might have been through, which is why I'd just like to know.

Course, if you don't want to, that's totally alright. I'm chill with that. But I know that most of you want someone to notice your pain. So I just want to extend a hand to anyone who's willing to reach out to mine.

and for anyone wondering, the name out the bottom of the comment box is the name I originally used for the girl in the poem. It rhymes with my name... no... wait. No it doesn't, I think I've been pronouncing it wrong this whole time! :O ... :noes: .... :la:

*ahem* I also have plenty of angsty and not so angsty poems in my gallery *shameless plug* I get insecure when this is the only thing in my freaking gallery that gets favorited, not that it really matters orz

/end long edited comment rambles/ :phew:

~~~'s about suicide, so I suppose it's mature? >_>

wow...I don't think most of my poems are this depressing.

I actually wrote this in 8th grade...and I ended it on a sort of attempt at a positive note, but not really, if you don't know what I mean. and I rewrote the ending about 2 years ago, but it still was kind of weird. So I rewrote most of it bout 2 months ago, and hardly any of the original is left, but it's generally the same...but yeah.

I'm not suicidal. I was just depressed when I wrote it the first time as with most...things. >_>

but yes...I digress.

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I-so-ship-it Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014  New member Hobbyist General Artist
I almost cried...this is touching and I can relate to it...sadly.
TheOneTheyCallTrent Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2014  Student Artist
Sheepspotatonugget Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is so beautiful 
Glacethewolf Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Student Writer
I want to tell you this, suicide is considered the Cowards way out, nobody deserves to be bullied to where they will suicide, I might be a stranger, but nobody should ever suicide because of bullying,when I was younger, a guy nearly strangled me, and he did it because he hates me, but remember, you shouldn't ever do suicide, life isn't replaceable,life doesn't last forever, so please don't leave the world because of bullying
mollyteter Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014   Digital Artist
this is so much like my life, its kinda scary. not including the thing about the man/boy thingy but yeah, thats me. i wish i could get out of this, but i dont really want to say anything. this was very well written btw, im gonna have a look at some of your other pieces (and no im not tryying to be creepy :D) thank you for writing about this and more people need to see this.
2snails1shell Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Please don't? Stay and work "it" out !YAY! :hug: Kirk & Kiki :heart:
boodikashu Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is EXACTLY how I feel. I have, like, four friends... And all of them constantly push me aside so I'm wondering if they ARE my friends or whether it's ME who's the problem and then I feel that it would be better for me to die and leave everyone on peace. I mean, I've been better recently, but it's still there... I wrote a poem on the same subject, take a look. Nowhere near as good as this one but I want to know how many people are in the same situation as me...
KryoriMai Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This...this....just explained the story of me....
SurvivorDove Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
Very powerful words...I cannot describe how similar this is to someone I used to know. She's not dead, but she could have been with the crap she went through. I'm amazed she never tried anything like suicide because I suspected her of that for almost a year. Then another friend of ours has had god knows how many people in his life kill themselves. Makes me wonder if it'd have been any different if they had read something like this. Maybe that's why my friend was so strong, but I don't know. Anyway, I have a high respect for this. I appreciate what I have written.
verycuriouslystrange Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
:heart: I read it.  And, I felt better.  Will that feeling last?  Who knows.  But, I wanted to thank you.  :nod:
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